H&M Bag

Hi Bunny,

It was a really cold and windy ride this morning on the motorcycle, especially, since some punk motorcyclist rode right into my lane. I was going 80-85, and saw someone coming out of the corner of my eye. Turns out it was a cop, telling me to slow down. I was lucky he didn't pull me over.

So I'm going to Vegas tomorrow to hang out with my sister. Not really looking forward to Vegas for the 4th time this year!

I saw a woman on the street today with the exact same white bag you bought at H&M, which made me think of you.

Good night,
Sh.

Vandy lost his butt

Hey Bunny,

How are you? I really wonder how you are doing.

I woke up this morning around 4AM, and I'm holding Vandy (if you haven't guessed, Vandy is the name of the bear you gave me to snuggle), but I noticed a ball in my other hand. Somehow, Vandy's butt or tail had fallen off. So now, left with an orange ball, the bear is without its tail. I had a dream about you last night. I want to say it's the first time I've ever dreamed of you in any way. We were here in SF, walking around, and everything was blurry. Then you were gone and I woke up. I can't recall any details, only the blurriness and vagueness of the dream.

My usual hairstylist offered to change it up a bit for me today, so I took a chance, and now I hate it. It's so short that it doesn't look like me at all. I'm thinking it'll take at least two weeks for me to feel normal again, but in the meantime, I'll be staring into the mirror at a stranger. Who is that guy?

Good night,
Sh.

New contact lens prescription

Hi Bunny,

Remember when I was fucked, swapping contact lenses and not knowing which pair were new or old. Being fairly sure that I was wearing the newer pair, I've made it this far, but a few more weeks and I should have my custom made lenses delivered. They cost $200, but that's pretty normal for made-to-order lenses. Apparently, I'm blinder than a bat and need "special" lenses. Or was it that my astigmatism is so severe, my eyes are like footballs, rather than baseballs?

Another day without calling or texting you. It's only been two days and it's been hard, but I can see that it'll get easier with time. Adjustment periods and change always takes a bit of time and chaos to go over smoothly. I still haven't heard from Brent yet - and if I don't, I may just go off to SD on my own and meet up with Pascal, or better yet, just hang at the beach by myself. I've always wanted to read all these books and this seems to be perfect opportunity to catch up.

How's your dead man, Herbert was my choice to name him. Can't believe you have a Walter, Fred, and Frank!!

G.night,
Sh.

Can't find my car. What else is new?

Hi Bunny,

How was your day today? Hope you are studying well. Mine was good. That presentation I had to give to one of the investors went really well. I was prepared and all the work I did on Saturday helped tremendously.

I went to the gym after work and had a decent workout, but as I walked out, looking for my car, I couldn't find it. I walked around for about 5 minutes, back and forth. I thought of you and all the times I couldn't find my car while I was with you, there were quite a few. :)

Talking o Brent, we may be going to SD or LV this weekend, since I need to use the tickets. I offered to pay for his, so I'm sure I'll use them by expiration. We might go down to watch the horse races.

Good night,
Sh.

A new beginning

Hi Bunny,

In my futile attempt to keep myself sane, I will write my thoughts and perhaps some of my "fabulous life" adventures here. You may or may not read this, but that's to be seen in the coming weeks and months, and hopefully, NOT years.

Let me start with this past weekend. I am completely crushed and in such a wreck. Never did I imagine myself being in this state. You know - nothing has changed between us, at least in my eyes. I know that deep down you still have strong feelings for me. The way we cope with our emotions is completely different, and being so close to you, yet not being able to hold you or kiss you was so painful that I couldn't take it one minute longer, which explains my abrupt decision to leave. How could things have changed so suddenly and so quickly? We mentioned that you have to do it this way or else you won't be able to study well. I'm sorry if I can't handle that, it breaks my heart.

Now that I'm home, on what seemed to be the longest journey, I feel a bit better. I've emotionally settled myself down and am ready to move forward. Just know that you are not merely a random girl that I had an amazing summer with, but you are truly special and amazing to me.

Sh.